This post could also be titled “After the Workshop.” Any SourcePoint workshop you may have attended, three years ago, or three weeks ago, this applies. Often after workshops people write to me with stories of their experiences when they return home. Mostly it goes smoothly, and they find they can integrate the work and experience of the training into their life. Often, however, people also report a difficulty in maintaining the intensity and flow of the work as they experienced it in the workshop. Of course there are questions that arise in relation to how to do the work, what does a particular client’s reaction mean, and so on, but the most common question is: I don’t feel the energy as strongly and clearly as I did in the workshop. Is there something more I should be doing? What can I do to return to that experience?
First, remember that this shift is not about what you personally are doing or not doing. That shift in frequency you are experiencing is exactly that; you are moving from one vibration to another, from one field of energy to another. In a SourcePoint training we experience together an energy field that is tangible and palpable, that is permeated by the information of Order, Balance, Harmony and Flow. What we call the Blueprint information is the specific information of health for the human body, and it exists within the universal energy field that gives rise to all form. When we gather together with the intention of connecting to this information, a specific field of energy is invoked; we enter into it and work in that context. That same field is present always and is invoked also when you hold the points by yourself, for yourself or another. However, the group energy and intention enhances the experience of re-connection to the Source. This connection to the cosmic intelligence that contains the information of Order, Balance, Harmony and Flow is a profound experience of Source.
After dwelling in that field of wholeness and presence for two days, three days, a week, a return to “ordinary” life may bring sometimes a sense of let-down. Know that whenever you have an experience of profound Wholeness and Connection, when you experience that mysterious and wonderful network of energy that is everywhere, when you feel it in your body, see it with your eyes, touch it with your hands, you are transformed. You will never be the same again. The memory may fade, especially if you do not return for further work, or find some other way to re- experience that connection so vividly. The memory will fade, but that doesn’t matter. The experience is there at a deep level. You know you are not alone, you are not isolated, you are a unique manifestation of the universal energy and you belong to Source.
So we come to faith. This word is often used in a religious context. What does it mean when we speak of it in relation to energy work? Whenever you are dealing with that which is invisible, experiences that don’t make sense to the limited mind, there is an element of faith that is involved. When you return from a SourcePoint training you may have thoughts along these lines sometimes: “All right, here I am in my life. Sometimes I have wondrous experiences. I am overcome by the wonder and delight of seeing everything as connected, of having my intuitions about the nature of things confirmed, by being able to use this work and see its effect on people. At other times I can’t feel it. In the workshop I could feel the blockages so clearly. Sometimes now I am not sure. Before I could feel the information of the Blueprint working, and now I don’t feel it so strongly. It all seemed so real, and now I wonder. I doubt. I am not sure.”
This is the time to remember: that field is there whether you feel it or not. If you are standing there holding the points, you will feel it, sooner or later. You are connected, it is connected, everything is connected. Once again, as we say so often, it is not about you. It’s time to get out of the way again, to let go of thinking it’s about you. It’s not about your experience, what you feel or don’t feel, how good it feels, or how different it is, or how bad it feels to feel disconnected. It’s about the fact that the connection is there always and you are facilitating that connection by holding the points, in service of yourself or another. The connection cannot be broken or lost. Only your awareness of it fades some times. Don’t worry about it. You may long for that vivid experience of connection, completeness, and energy flow. And, yes, you can do various things to try to intensify your experience again, but really you can just wait it out, knowing that field is always present and that your experience of it will return.
Remember also that energy needs structure to flow freely at this level of existence. Flow and structure are intimately related. So providing a structure for the energy to flow will increase your awareness of it, intensify your experience of it. If you are working specifically with the practices of SourcePoint do some of them on a really regular basis, for yourself.
I now do the Guardian Points, Navel Point, and the single Source Point to the right of the body every day when I wake up, before getting up. It’s my morning meditation. I take my time with it, feeling myself connect to myself and that which is greater than and no other than myself, with Source. I experience the transition from sleep to waking. I feel the life energy circulate within me and around me. It chooses where to go, knows with unerring accuracy what needs attention. I relax into it and receive. Some days thoughts are running in my mind the whole time I do this. I barely notice the touch of the guardian points, the flow from the Navel Point. But it’s there, and as soon as I turn my attention fully to what is happening, the experience intensifies. And even if I don’t turn my attention there, I feel the benefit afterward.
With such a simple act you provide a structure that allows the energy of Source, of the Blueprint, to flow, and allows you to experience that flow regularly, vividly, in your own body consciousness. Think of the practices of SourcePoint as the stars in the sky that guide the navigator: fixed points that provide a guide for the energy to flow to you and in you, a channel for your intention of experiencing Source to manifest.
When you feel connected, that is experienced in the field of Order, Balance, Harmony and Flow. When you feel disconnected, that is experienced in the field of Order, Balance, Harmony and Flow. Whether you feel good or bad, energized or fatigued, up or down, it all takes place in that field. Awareness is the thread. Awareness allows you to move freely from one vibration to another, from one experience to another. Awareness helps you to experience that all this movement takes place within the larger context of Order, Balance, Harmony and Flow. The workshop is one unique experience with its own vibration, unrepeatable and completely itself. Your return home is another. Every moment has its energy, its pattern. No experience in this world of form can ever be repeated, so take time to appreciate the particular frequency of every experience.
Remember Indra’s net: the universe can be described as a vast net of light, connected in a grid by points of light, and at each point is a mirror reflecting every other mirror. Let your imagination, your heart, your spirit, open to that image. That net supports you whether you know it’s there or not. You are woven into that net, you are a thread in it, a point in it.
Go right now. Lie down. Invoke the Guardians. Do the Navel point. Hold the Source Point.
Remember, relax, open and receive.
©2011 Donna Thomson and Bob Schrei
(Thanks for the photo to Andreas Klingebiel)